in the mist of unravel feelings

    In the mist of this strength I fall without you letting me in each and every day its death and i cant wait to die. Why do you do this i ask myself? the door is about to close on me and i don't realize it i don't see i'm loosing my vision it blurs more than you think i cry yet you don't see my tears the same tears that ponder. this pain is inside me through my body consuming whats left of me eating my soul and not letting go. I'd take away the pain but were would i leave it. where can i drop it. so it can stay. it follows me everywhere i go like my shadow never letting apart always following reminding me that he is their. i try to pick myself off of the dirt but where would i go. the only place i have is room. no not a home that doesn't exist without a family or love? love a form that tortures and brings back pain. you try to save me pick me up yet even if my body goes up my soul is down on the floor where it belongs. Purity is not a word a for me its something you are and im not. my sins have brought me here where i am a place not one can enter. All my voices tell me to die yet i don't lisen. I trying to find an exit in this muse that doesn't seem to actually have one. if this is how its going to be id rather die that to stay lost and never get out of this misery.

Since you came

     Hi well I haven´t been able to do this in along while it´s actually a controversial in my mind whether to speak about you or not. So I asked you if I can write about you and you gave me the opportunity to go go ahead and do it my vision was that you were going to back out I would have written about you anyway so to start with you full my with the ecstasy where no one has gone and to further this you don´t mind because of the faults I´ve had I told you I ain´t no angle yet you decided to ignore my advice. Do you believe me now? I'M going to assume you do. Who would have thought though one of the main activities I do is fulfill other peoples dreams to make them feel as if a craving of having the soul and body take control. Don't underestimate my thoughts, emotions, and actions cause their is always a surprise like the first day we were together. I don't go for bullshit I learned to hate and reject it but when it comes to this you better no take that step. For now I feel you at every close of my eyes, I feel your touch nibbles gently in all my body asking for an entrance inside me an entrance i don;t deny at all this this is what I want whether it's sinful and unethical towards society i believe it has been unethical towards us. I plead for mercy with every tough you give me because i just want you to make me yours like if it was the last thing you did. CONTROL ME MAKE ME LOOSE POWER. This weakness grands you entrance and power towards all of me. I know I'm holding on to you as the same way you are to me. How we do is with this game that might end well or misery but whichever it actually is the pleasure or your lips your body is something no one will take away if you were powder i would inhale you until I passed out. Only you know that only you will know that if this comes to an end  i will go with dead silence to the doom. Somewhere no one can find me.