hating and loving to move on and off

     Hi Lisa, its me once again writing to let you know what has happened and let me tell you its been a lot although it would depend on how you decide to see the situation so I am once again moving for the i don''t know 10th time now but the most curious thing is that i thought i was gonna have my own space but no i don't and its not much that i hate it just that it gets tiring to depend on someone and although i know my family isn't going through a good time i wish i had my own space to let myself out i appreciate everything everyone has done for me and I'm okay with it but being a nerd and a freak that can fight is kinda weird because people misjudge you in many ways that you can not keep up with them yes i do act weird but it is mostly because of my past and my present its not like i don't have friends because i do and i know that but sometimes you just need to keep it to your own like your life and every personal stuff your feeling because seeing through someones weakness is the worst thing you can do no matter how much people say other wise its true seeing all weakness is bad because many people take advantage of you and its not fair you should learn how to depend on your self and yes i do understand people depends one guys and girls more to say girlfriends and boyfriends to keep them up but what if their no their when you really need them because now a days relationships are mostly based on sex and idea of love but not actual love call me crazy to believe that still exist but it does somewhere out-here we just got to look and find like a hide and seek game and after for those whose suffer disabilities like me of anxiety things are seen different good or add but they are seen different mostly books and music are escapes for the mind to be free from everything no matter hoe much we deny it it is our escape to not be sad and depressed because maybe just maybe we like being like that. 

remember this guys.